May 4th, 2021: I received my next set of instructions, which was maybe the most exciting yet because the plan as of now is to transfer June 1st or 2nd!! Slightly freaking out about that. I am allowing myself to be excited about this. I KNOW things can happen and plans can change, but I’m going to be heartbroken whether I’m excited or trying not to think about it, so I’m allowing myself to be excited and hopeful. It’s hard to see in this picture, but that’s a list of all of the different cycles we have gone through with the clinic. Starting with EB (egg banking – since I have a very low follicle number) at the very bottom in August of 2020 and now with our first FET (frozen embryo transfer). It’s been a long, hard journey, but we are getting closer. I told Jake sometimes I am still shocked that we are in this place with IVF. I KNEW we would eventually transfer, but things kept happening to delay that so it just felt like it would never happen. Every time I think about the transfer, I smile.
May 9th, 2021: I got the sweetest messages on Mother’s Day. I don’t think I was sad on Mother’s Day. Having a plan in place and knowing that we *should* be transferring one of our babies in June gives me some peace. When I got this first text from my Mom, I immediately started crying. She’s right. The second the lab put together egg and sperm, we got embryos – they became our babies.
I got a flower at brunch on Mother’s Day. It made me smile. I love thinking about our babies on ice.