July 24th: on this Friday, I got everything set-up with the pharmacy we will be using. They will be overnighting us the drugs I need, which is great. The meds are expensive, so I am extra thankful (yet again) that Jake has his HSA money. I was feeling some serious guilt about him using all of that for our IVF treatment, but he keeps reminding me that we are a team and we can get through anything together, which is true. I’m so thankful for him. We have our baseline appointments on Tuesday the 28th, so this Saturday was my last long run for awhile. That hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. Running is my outlet. It’s a big part of who I am. I didn’t want to lose that. I kept reminding myself that running will always be there for me when I am ready, but it’s going to be hard not to lace up. I have heard I won’t feel like running at all once my eggs start growing, so I am kind of banking on that. My coordinator told me she would like it if I didn’t run because with high intensity stuff, women going through IVF risk having their ovaries flip. That didn’t sound fun to me, so I agreed to no running.
I got this list of a ton of supplements to start taking. I got all of them ordered online.
I also got my list of medications. I felt like this was similar to reading another language. I definitely had a lot of anxiety about these meds. I had no clue what I was going to be doing and it all just seemed like a lot. I knew as soon as I got through the first injection, I would feel better, but every day leading up to that was hard. I don’t like feeling like I have no clue what’s going on.
The pharmacy overnighted my meds, which was wonderful. I received everything on Saturday after my last long run. I didn’t start any of the injections until Tuesday, but I was glad I got everything early and could look through it all. A lot of the meds were refrigerated, so they were shipped in a cooler.
My Trulies kept my meds company in the fridge. ; )
Did you know the pineapple is a symbol of strength for couples going through infertility? I had no clue until I joined a couple groups and started seeing it everywhere. I have always loved pineapples – I have a tattoo of one – but I feel like it now has an added meaning. One of the women in a group I am in made these pineapple masks for us during our IVF cycles. I love it.
July 27th – TMI POST! I had a hard day today. I’ve been cramping and having a lot of spotting the past 4 days. I’m only on birth control. I started getting really worried about starting all the other injections. I cried twice…maybe three times. Extra thankful for Jake, who came home from working 16 hours and gave me a back rub. I can’t imagine going through this without him by my side. After a couple of good cries, I felt MUCH better. We have our first real appointment in Tulsa tomorrow! GULP. I am nervous and excited.
I have to take all of these supplements each morning.